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Journal Entries # 24 – Painful Discipline and Peaceful Harvest

Disyembre 24, 2007

Journal Entries of Bro. Bren

Last Friday, i went to my old home in Sta. Cruz, Manila. I found my old journal there. I will share my devotion dated November 18, 2005

Reading : Isaiah 28:23-29

Consider the farmer: He not only plows the ground, he keeps on breaking and harrowing the soil. When the surface is leveled, he would plant the seeds. Wait. Harvest. The same with the believers of Jesus. Hardships, Sufferings, they make us mature and strong. God will not give us things that we can’t bear. The farmer waits for the harvest so the believers of Jesus. We can be assured that we have a Wonderful in counsel and magnificent in Wisdom God. The things or circumstances we have right now are ways of God for us to be more dependent on Him. Serving God maybe hard. But one day, He will say, “Well done. My good and faithful servant!”

Hebrews 12:11 (New Living Translation)

New Living Translation (NLT)

Holy Bible. New Living Translation copyright © 1996, 2004 by Tyndale Charitable Trust. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers.

11 No discipline is enjoyable while it is happening—it’s painful! But afterward there will be a peaceful harvest of right living for those who are trained in this way.


Journal Entry # 22 – All About Children

Disyembre 18, 2007

my brother noli has something to share about Thy Marketplace’s Gift-giving last Saturday and his worship last Sunday at Day by Day Christian Ministries.

hi guys,

let me just share you the experience i had during the gift giving activity last saturday along with our other workers for the Lord…the yearly activity once again reminded me of my humble beginning years back…i could have opted to spend the weekends with my family, but reaching out to those less fortunate in life has brought bliss to my soul..

with our measly gift, around 30 or 20 pesos plus the food package of sandwich, one china apple, jellyace, and funchum juice, hundreds of smiles hovered the place even just for few minutes… undoubtedly, the ecstatic moment surely transcended to the angels above as children excitedly opened their gifts….it was really fulfilling to have a noble cause like it… the more i was inspired to strive more in order to start a benevolent undertaking in the near future…

it was also revelead to me by the Lord that, what we have sometimes could not be equated to happiness or a shield to sadness, but by mere sharing our lives, in order to connect to those person in need, is what He’s been asking for…

my two days stay at manila gave me the opportunity to broke my routine since i joined my bsp family last january… as far as i can remember, the last time i spent my weekends in manila was sometime in june when i also participated a GK activity at muntinlupa…

comes sunday…..

my sunday was comparably worthy with me attending at Day by Day at Folk Arts Theater with Bren… (tnx Bren) i witnessed how God conquered the lives of many across ages…young children has already been serving the Lord with their talents, dancing and singing, passionately in front of thousands attendees…

much to my sight delight was my yearning to hear the word delivered by no less than Pastor Ed Lapiz…the sharing was all about how Jacob deceived his father Isaac, that could be found at the book of Genesis…we might all be familiar with the story but lots of new learning came to me as i attentively listen and heatfully digest every insights that came from the Lord…

after the service, i decided not to join the Christmas party of bren and company at dampa, though i was invited..the options of either heading to MOA or playing badminton after having lunch crossed in my mind…

at the doorsteps of folk arts, bren and I bought a newly published book of Pastor Ed entitled Happines is Relationship back to back with Happines is Attitude… it is only a single book with two different genres with biblical adaptations and logical applications to our lives upon looking happiness… it costed me 100 bucks and we have it authographed by pastor Ed himself… =) it was the idea of bren though..

impatiently looking for a PUV to buendia, (which there was none pala in that area) i took a cab and reached MOA… i dined at El Polo Loco and while waiting for my food, i was having a glance at my newly acquired reading.. it caught my interest and unnoticeably, ive finished almost half of the part of Happiness is Relationship…(sounds frustrated..hehehe)

i continued to delight myself with the possible gift
to myself and to my loved ones but i failed to get even a single item..hehehe… tnx God for the reminder about Threats of Live during the church service… i could have impulsively swiped my magnetic card again…further, i spent few minutes at powerbooks, but i didnt see my desired item, likewise….

i still played badminton, finished reading the the book half part of the book, talked to my friend over the phone for nearly two hours, worked for my ministry, and finally slept…

my life became sweeter than before!!!!


Journal Entry # 21 – I Only Have 5 Months To Live..

Disyembre 18, 2007

Lamentations 3:22-25 KJV

It is of the LORD’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.

They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.

Let me share this entry from a dear sister in Christ, bianca. hope this will move you..

Im dying of end-stage Waldenstrom Macroglobulinemia.. a cancer of the immune system.. My doctors told me i only have a few months to live.. But who are they? they didn’t create me, did they? They did not master every part of my body as what my maker have mastered..

I only realized my disease 3 mos ago.. I was honestly not ready for the news i was about to receive.. At that time, I had 8 mos to live.. The doctors suggested several ways of having cure to this disease but they were all useless.. it only brought more pain to the body that had already been painful.. WM has no cure.. at first i started asking God why.. why has this happened to me? but little by little im seeing light at the end of this dark tunnel i am walking through.. i no longer see myself 5 or 10 years from now.. that is too far from reality.. i know my frail body will not last that long..

but this disease had given me a new perspective in life.. it gave me reason to thank God for every single breath i take and every morning i see with my failing eyes.. i come to appreciate the leaves falling the the roses beside my hospital bed.. i learned to love my parents more.. say i love you to those i really love.. and appreciate every single and simple things people important to me are doing.. knowing that i may not be able to that again.. or perhaps tomorrow..

i have now come to accept my condition.. i know from my heart of hearts that God has a better purpose for me.. oh how i pray that my testimony may change lives and make people realize how short our live are.. it is short because no one can be sure that they are still alive tomorrow..

i am not praying for long life for my sake.. i am praying for long life so that other people may come to realize the same realizations i had while im on my hospital bed.. i am not praying for healing for myself.. i am praying for healing to those people that have long more years to live and can do lots of change to other people and their community.. i am not praying for miracle for myself.. i am praying for miracle to those people who knows me or read this post that they may realize their potential in Christ to be used for his greater glory, before its too late..

i wanted to write lots of things here.. but that seems to be boring to read.. so as you finish reading some parts of my life, i dont want you to pray for me.. I WANT YOU TO PRAY FOR YOURSELF.. what have you done for Christ lately? when was the last time you became a blessing to your family and brethren? my friend there is only one difference between you and me.. I have 5 more months to live.. but you don’t know how long or how short you’ll live.. i pray that you would start acting right here right now.. i don’t need to know you’re a christian.. i need to SEE that you’re a christian..

Bianca – 12/12/2007

(published with permission)

Lamentations 3:22-25 KJV

It is of the LORD’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.

They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.

update: Bianca death came earlier as expected. details here